Should I Stay or Should I Go?

So here's the deal...The culminating course of my Masters degree is a field training excursion in Southern Nicaragua. Although our professor (who has been a journalist in Chechnya, Colombia, China etc.) is unable to disclose any details about the training, he has told us that we'll be in a conflict-zone simulation, under intense physical and mental pressure with little to no sleep for one solid week. When I asked if we were going to be shot-at, he ambiguously replied: "I can not tell you any of this information". Sounds like fun, right? Well, I'm crazy enough to think so, especially because ideally, I would love to be a journalist reporting in conflict zones.

All this to say that if I attend the training, I'll have to be away from Harper and Rivers for 8 days. Although the prospect of leaving an early-rising, sometimes whiny baby behind for a week would have sounded like a blessing only 6 months ago, I've grown quite attatched to the little sucker and don't know if I can be away from her. I mean, I doodle her name surrounded by little hearts on my notebook when I'm in class for 3 hours...How am I going to do 56 X 3 hours? Will she forget about me? Will she be scarred for life? What if she miraculously starts talking, and because I'm gone, her first word isn't Mama? Is she going to turn into a teenage delinquent because I left her for a week when she was 6 months old?

I have to make my decision by tomorrow evening. What do you guys think?